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Europe
So this week has been fun, Madrid, Barcelona, Paris, Its all pretty fun. To get the full details check it out at www.todaywasawesome.com | | Thursday, April 12th, 2007 | | 2:14 am |
Once again movie night rolled around and once again I had fun even if no one else seemed to. Well you can’t please everyone so you got to please your self. Truth be told movie night is hard to pull off every time because there are so many different groups that every once in a while some people come and they just don’t mesh too well. That’s what happened this time but after the ice broke and one of the groups went home things picked up quite nicely. The chicken parmesan recipe that Fatty gave us was awesome! We ran out of the correct spices so it was missing the perfect zing but that’s ok, practice makes perfect. I thought we made way too much but once again to my surprise, no left over food. When Larry Daley, a divorced father who can't seem to keep a job for more than a week, applies for a job at the Museum of Natural History, he is assigned as a night guard. However, a seemingly easy job turns out to be a wild ride when he finds that an ancient curse has caused the "inhabitants" of the museum to come to life. This was my second time seeing this movie and I liked it a lot more this time around. Its not your typical Ben Stiller movie, but this time knowing that it was a kids movie allowed me to accept and enjoy the humor better. It is really amazing how your perceptions and pre-conceived notions about a movie can drastically change your attitude about it. All in all it was a good move night, I liked the food and the movie was great. Chicken Parmesan: $31.27 minus $2 from Movie Night Donations $29.27 Bang for our Buck …. 3 Bangs | | Thursday, February 15th, 2007 | | 3:00 am |
Movie night was another success despite the cosmic disruption that we call Valentines Day. Today being in my opinion the worst day of the year, I had a surprisingly good time. We started with a great Baked Pasta Shells recipe that Dan and I sort of just made up. Then after dinner everyone chatted and we even got a rendition of Tree Boy going on, I have to say that while it is fun, it is not quite as exciting if everyone isn’t willing to sing. Finally we left for the theater, on time for once I might add and everyone got tickets for the show, well almost everyone, I have been noticing a high attrition rate between the white house and Movies 8. In South Boston, the state police force is waging war on Irish-American organized crime. Young undercover cop Billy Costigan is assigned to infiltrate the mob syndicate. Colin Sullivan, who has infiltrated the police department as an informer for the syndicate, is rising to a position of power in the Special Investigation Unit. When it becomes clear to both the mob and the police that there's a mole in their midst, Billy and Colin are suddenly in danger of being caught. This film is good but not great. The story line had major potential but instead of spending money on developing it they through it all into big name actors and flashy effects. Honestly the dialog was un thought provoking with the F-bomb alone being dropped 237 times. Then the story ends in the worst way possible. Trying for a “shocking” or “mind-blowing” ending they added another mole to the mix and in less then a min everyone dies. Now if that was how it ended I think the movie would have been much better but then they continue to drag it out and try and give you another “twist” by killing off the main character in a random act of premeditated violence. But after the shocking second mole this little twist left you wishing the movie had ended five min ago. This weeks movie night: $23.27 Minus $4.03 from movie night donations…$19.25 Bang for our Buck: 3 Bangs | | Wednesday, February 7th, 2007 | | 10:49 pm |
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This week’s movie night was a success. As usual the night began with Dan and I, running around frantically getting together all the ingredients for this week’s meal that we were preparing for what we thought would be close to twenty people. Then as usual the calls began to come in… everyone canceling for one reason or another. Well with a few well placed phone calls and one risqué house call, we where able to pull together a decent group. Seventeen by my count, lets try and get a few more next week eh? The shepherds’ pie was really good and we made plenty for everyone along with roles and juice drinks, we had cookies at the beginning but Ian seemed to have eaten them before anyone else made it. It was an easy recipe and cook time was under an hour and a half and we got everything for $22.59. The Prestige is a movie that seems to befuddle everyone for the first time. I must say that the second time around was a very enjoyable experience. The beginning is riddled with clues to what’s going on and as Sara said “Once you know the trick it’s really quite simple.” The Prestige is the story of two magicians, whose intense rivalry pits them against each other on a life-long battle for supremacy, leading instead to a life full of obsession, deceit and jealousy, jeopardizing the lives of everyone around them. This story is well told and presented beautifully making for an enjoyable if a bit drawn out night at the movies. Costs for our admissions were a dollar a piece. This week’s Movie Night with shepherds’ pie: $24.59 Minus the $2 from Movie Night donations….$22.59. Bang for our Buck: 4 Bangs | | Monday, January 8th, 2007 | | 6:02 pm |
I love Anti-Depressants
OK my friend and I obtained the actual medication guide that they give you along with any perches of an antidepressant. Reading through it we found a few logical errors so I decided to post some excerpts and see if you can spot them too! (actual medication guide for prozac.) Parents or guardians need to think about 4 important things when their child is prescribed an antidepressant: 1. There is a risk of suicidal thought or actions. 2. How to try to prevent suicidal thoughts or actions in your child. 3. You should watch for certain signs if your child is taking an antidepressant. 4. There are benefits and risks when using antidepressants. (ok if that was it fine, its logical if your depressed you might try and kill yourself, but the medication guide continues.) Children and teenagers sometimes think about suicide, and many report trying to kill themselves. Antidepressants INCREASE suicidal thoughts and actions in some children and teenagers. But suicidal thoughts and actions can also be caused by depression, a serious medical condition that is commonly treated with antidepressants. (Hold on a min here, lets take a look at the logic on this one. A) Depression causes suicidal tendencies. B) Lets treat depression with a pill that INCREASES suicidal tendencies? C) Its called population control who liked those fat girls anyway!) A Large study combined the results of 24 different studies of children and teenagers with depression or other illnesses. In these studies, patients took either a placebo or an antidepressant for 1 - 4 months. No one committed suicide in these studies, BUT SOME PATIENTS BECAME SUICIDAL. (Hum... so 24 different studies have all proven that antidepressants make me want to kill myself. I want to take this why?) YOU SHOULD WATCH FOR CERTAIN SIGNS IF YOUR CHILD IS TAKING AN ANTIDEPRESSANT Contact your health care provider RIGHT AWAY if your child exhibits any of the following signs: *New or worse depression (what does the word ANTI mean anyway?) *Thoughts about suicide or dying (we sell a telepathy pill that makes you want to eat poison!) *Acting on dangerous impulses (what like joining the football team?) *Attempts to commit suicide (wait i thought i was taking an ANTI-depressant why am I suddenly willing to throw myself off a bridge into a bus full of Scandinavian school children?) (well to end this cheery guide they chose a few well developed sentences to smooth things over and reassure you that you DO want to take those little pills) IS THIS ALL I NEED TO KNOW IF MY CHILD IS BEING PRESCRIBED AN ANTIDEPRESSANT? NO. This is a warning about the risk for suicidality. Other side effects can occur. (oh thats great besides having to worried about becoming the newest skid mark on the interstate, my shorts are going to have skid marks, I'm going to hack up a lung while i begin to bleed out of my eyes as my brain liquefies....wait maybe thats why i killed myself Current Mood: suicidal | | Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007 | | 2:26 am |
2007
So Ive been supper swamped with school, and homework, and hating school and all so I forgot to write during the past two months but anyway its 2007 now and I figured I would start off right and list some goals I have for this year.....ya so ill get to that. | | Wednesday, November 1st, 2006 | | 3:51 pm |
NaNoWriMo
NaNoWriMo stands for National Novel Writing Month. The challenge is to write a 50,000 word novel (about 175 pages) in the 30 days of November. Everyone who finishes wins! You win your name on a list of other people who finished, and certificate (that you have to download and print out yourself), and a “Winner” image you can place on your blog.(plagiarized from sam) Its official and Dan and I are going to race! Mostly just so I have some competition and a reason to keep writing. So every day you will get a word count from me and Dan. It should be about 1666 words a day to get done in time! Day one; Dan 0 Gary 0 | | Tuesday, October 24th, 2006 | | 11:17 pm |
To many
Bigger and More are two words that are good when mixed with any noun except women. | | Wednesday, October 11th, 2006 | | 1:44 am |
True story
It Can Always Get Worse. It was dark and cold enough to see your breath as I stepped out the back door. If I had known I would have had to work so late I would never have come in that day. My shift had gone by quickly and with out any major problems until I was getting ready to go. Just as I was taking off my apron the ape masquerading as my manager began to grunt and wave his arms about as if anyone really understood what it was trying to say. I was able to gather that it wanted me to keep working, I guess someone called in sick that day. The hours began to lengthen themselves as the night progressed, slower and slower the second hand seemed to take two ticks forward and one tick back. I began to make mistakes, one order I sent out with out any fries. The ape hooted from its corner office. I don’t think apes get tired. Twelve, thirteen, hours standing, my feet where numb now. Sweat mixed with grease rolled down my face as I labored over the grill. Fourteen hours and the ape decides it has had enough and begins to charge at the guests forcing them to retreat out the doors. Closing time! I throw the last drop of my strength into the freezer along with the final box of frozen fries. I strip the apron off me and shove it unceremoniously into the dirty hamper. Quickly I punch out finally it’s over, the worst day of my life. I look at my time card as I walk to the back door, fifteen hours twenty three minutes. Just reading it made my back ache. The back door clanged shut and I felt the cold in full force. Late autumn comes with a cold that will chill you to the bone, the kind that cuts right through your clothes to torture your skin and stiffen the joints. “It cant get any worse than this” I thought to myself, after so much I now had to look forward to a long ride home on my bike which offers no protection from the cold. I could see it parked in the parking spot out back where the employees are allowed to park right next to the dumpster. The red Kawasaki 450 was a pain to drive in the cold, the wind seems to triple the effects and sometimes your hands freeze so thoroughly you couldn’t change gears anymore. I trudged on over to that lump of metal that I had loved so earnestly this morning, now hating it with all my heart. As I flung my leg up over the bike I felt the cold metal freezing my thighs. I hit the ignition and . . . nothing. No hum, no shake, no sleeping monster roaring to life. Startled I tried the kick start, still nothing. I check the engine and almost cry in exhaustion. “No Gas. How could I be so stupid” I couldn’t believe I had forgotten I was running on the reserve tank. My thighs and calves burned and the small of my back felt as if it would brake away in open rebellion against me. “Just a little further,” I coxed “I just need to push the bike another 100 yards and I’m at the gas station.” The bright red Conoco lights hurt my weary eyes but I was just glad to be there. Feeling for the black leather wallet I always keep with me I started for the front door to put down 2 dollars on pump number one. My fingers reached inside the wallet as I got to the counter. “Empty, how could it be empty?” shocked I walked right back out the door without ever saying a word to the clerk. I briskly walked back to the restaurant, no problem Amy the assistant manager would still be there doing the closing accounts. I would borrow 2 bucks and be on my way in no time. The back door echoed as I banged, the echo brought the relieving sound of footsteps to my ears. The door cracked open and I almost choked. Grunts and barks streamed out at me. I wanted to crawl into a hole and die, “God hates me, it’s the only possible explanation” It never closes, NEVER, yet here it was hoping and scratching hooting at me. Some how I made it understand that I needed some of that green stuff it hordes selfishly and never shares, some how I got away with two one dollar bills with out getting bitten. Triumphantly I returned to the bedazzled night time clerk and handed him the money, “Two dollars on pump one” I almost shouted and then quickly left before he could comment on my strange behavior. I flipped up the cover on my tank and inserted the gas hose into the hole. I stepped back and waited for the tank to fill. When it began to move I was instantly struck with nostalgia, I vividly remembered those summer days as a child playing with the garden hose. Like a green dragon the water pressure would cause the hose to flip around and move as if it was alive. Searching for us with its deliciously cold water on such a scorching day it would scare us half to death as we would brink and jump around trying to avoid its spray. I was not a child anymore and this was anything but a warm summer’s day but there it was nevertheless, the dragon. The gas hose jumped and danced before me then just as before it found me, up down up, down again it soaked me with its spray. I stood frozen there “You have got to be kidding me.” One second then two passed, each an hour long. I blinked, that’s when I felt it like fire, the chemicals burning my skin. My feet and legs immediately covered in the invisible flame. Next was my torso, it was like a rash that was eating away at my skin it burned so bad. My face began to feel like termites had just realized that human flesh was way cooler then wood. “It can’t get any worse than this” was the only thing I could think, I looked up at the casher and he was staring at like I was a ghost. Suddenly a scream rocked the silence, it was my voice, I was screaming and I didn’t remember wanting to do that. I think I screamed when the termites found my eyes. It was maddening I wanted to tare my skin off; I continued screaming as I raced inside. “Water, I need water.” I panicly yelled. “The bathroom” was the mindless response of an obvious high school drop out. He must be related to the ape. “Where?” I pleaded. “Uh…back that way” he franticly pointed towards the cold drinks in the back corner. “Its locked” I screamed back at him getting a little annoyed at his stupidity. My eyes burned so badly I could hardly open them anymore I needed in. “Oh I have the key…Catch.” “Catch wha…” Sudden pain shot through my skull, the moron had just thrown the key along with the big wooden block they attached to it so no one would loose it, at a blind man. Franticly I felt around for it on the floor. Clumsily fumbling with the lock I rushed in and slammed the door shut. I striped naked as fast as I could and shoved my head under the faucet. Even with constant water poring into them my eyes continued to burn, I realized it must be my contacts they where still covered in gas. So out they came, and along with it a measure of the pain. I continued to dowse my self with water as the imbecile clerk continually asked if I needed him to call 911. 20 min later I reassessed my situation, “Well it can’t get any worse than this, I’m cold, wet, naked, and blind standing in a gas station bathroom at 2:00 am.” I wouldn’t be able to ride home, with out my contacts I’m blind, and even if I could see I wasn’t too keen on the idea of getting a public indecency ticket for riding around town in the nude. “Hey, I’m not here right now leave a message after the beep” I hung up, ok one roommate down 3 to go. Some one has to pick up, there has to be some way home. Call after call my phone book began to wither and die. No roommates, friends, or family. No classmates no one from church or work. In the end there was only one number left to try, the only person I wished would not pick up. “Hello, wha…what’s going on” Her groggy voice made my mouth go dry, I had had a crush on this girl since I was 8 years old. “Sorry to wake you up, um…I need you to bring me some clothes and pick me up at the gas station next to wingers, don’t ask” When she walked in and laughed my humiliation was complete, “life can NOT get any worse than this” I thought as I tried to force my legs into the largest pair of jeans she had and threw on her old high school sweatshirt. As we walked out the door the clerk made one final remark “Sir, you used more than 2 dollars of gas, you will need to pay for that before you go.” Current Mood: nostalgic | | Friday, October 6th, 2006 | | 3:35 am |
So I have to write an essay about something and show it in 2 different viewpoints. I hate english class. | | Wednesday, October 4th, 2006 | | 11:09 am |
Seems like an honest world
You carry the world, you will fall. With a sound we know so well, You live just to make it through another day. Just let it go, let it down. Quiet. I'm six feet under ground. Can you tell me something worth fighting for. When all is done and said, Crash and Burn sometimes I forget. Quiet All my life just about, With a sound we know so well, I live just to make it through another day. And all I had was... Quiet | | Thursday, September 28th, 2006 | | 8:51 pm |
Its cool that way
I love it when the girls actually do something for once. I got asked out and the girls made the plans and payed and did all the work. It felt nice like we are important. Girls should ask guys out more often. | | Saturday, September 16th, 2006 | | 3:15 pm |
Emotions
I hate emotions and feelings. I think i am through with em. | | Friday, September 15th, 2006 | | 6:21 pm |
/rain
I love the rain when you are inside and but when you walk outa class and you have to walk home and its poring freezing cold rain that just sucks. Vete a infierno triste nube. | | Thursday, September 14th, 2006 | | 3:34 pm |
Well, Ive been In Idaho for the last week, Its really cool I like it alot. Mostly because it is relaxed and no presure, you know small town type of thing, its kinda growing on me. Well I figured I should post something but the only vagely interesting thing that has happened is that I drove 3 hours to go to logan, when I got there it was fun but I locked my keys in the car so it wasn't till 1:00 when I finaly got them out (by calling the police) so I drove home and got home at 4. I will never do that again driving at night scares the crap outa me. Current Mood: tired | | Saturday, August 19th, 2006 | | 6:52 am |
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The date
So my date did not go at all as planed. We went to Sam Hawk! We ate good food. And thats when it stopped going as planed. After that we went to go get Ice Cream for her mom, who had surgery on her finger this week. We walked to Sam's thats 3 streets down. It took us 2 hours to go get it cuz Mary knows anyone and everyone that lives in Provo. Then we went stargazing to watch the meteor shower. She saw 3 but then the sprinkler system came on at the park we where at so we ran home. So it was the best worst date ever. | | Friday, August 18th, 2006 | | 8:50 am |
Sleep
Ok so lets just say college is not the best place to get a full nights sleep. In the last 9 days I haven't slept, more than 2 consecutive hours. What with movies, video games, Mary coming over late at night, random all night skate sessions that Ian brings home, Halo 2 and all sorts of other cool things to do, there just ain't time to sleep much. Yesterday at like 9 it started to catch up on me. My nerves are breaking down, my hands started to shake especially my thumb and I felt like my heart was going to explode from some sorta adrenalin rush. I couldn't sleep and I was freaking out cuz I heard this story of some guy who never slept so he went insane so I wanted to sleep but I couldn't. I played Mario cart for a while then I put a burrito in the microwave. Next thing I know its 3:00 o'clock and Sid is asking me why there is a cold burrito in the micro. I didn't sleep last night ether, I need to start doing that some time. | | Wednesday, August 16th, 2006 | | 10:49 pm |
smile
I love my sister, she is so cool. Current Music: scientist - cold play |
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